its currently 12.20pm and i am in the school library.. terribly depressed over all my test results.. i failed practically everything.. perhaps not everything. but every subject was way below my my expectations.. my expectation isn't say very high.. just make sure i am not the bottom few of the class and i will be terribly hapy.. lif sucks.. why do such things always have to happen to me.. i am lazy.. right.. lazy.. the most crucial word that affects each and everyone's studies.. u give me a knife and i will gladly slaughter myself into pieces right in front of your eyes. f.. all my subjects are like so terribly screwed up!! maths i got 9 out of 15. what else.. physics quiz i am the lowest in class.. like a bloody 6 out of 15.. still got wht else.. chinese compo.. 38 out of 60!!! hey. chinese as practically my best subject and i got such damned results!?!? what am i coming to lahx! then there's econs.. 3 out of 10.. wtf.. sorry to let u guys listen to all my complaints.. its just that i need a pace to vent out my anger and i think this is the best place for me.. in school, i always give a cheerful face. the face that everyone likes. but in reality, i guess thats not so.. i cry, i shout, i do anything that i can do that will be able to release my stress.. i am kinda sick and tired of this life... maybe i shall jump back to my own self.. the real self that will always lock myself up in y own room.. doing whatever things i feel like doing.. cursing.. maybe i can use my voodoo doll.. to do some black magick.. i am not going to laugh and smile as much as i usually do.. i shall remain solemn.. like now.. staring at the screen, expressionless...

sorry. the results really affected me a lot...