u know sometimes when u know a quarrel is going to spark off anytime. it feels terrible. its like u are on the brink of bursting into flames at someone, but u care about him or her too much to do so. that moment of awkwardness, is unbearable. but i care too much about my pride to even say another thing. its probably not anyone's fault, or it might be both parties' at fault. Or it might even be my fault. for being to easily irritated. that is why i need a moment of silence - to calm myself down.

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i want to walk out to the streets at night. alone.
listen to the lonely cars strolling past me.
u didn't get me wrong. its strolling.
the alley might be a wonderful place to wonder.

i treasure my time alone. but i'm scared of it.
its contradicting, i know.

when u are alone, u can breathe in the surroundings.
u can see more,
u can hear more.
the silence can be deafening.
but u think more.

i like to think.
i like to ask myself questions.
i like to wonder.
i like to ponder.

why is life so tiring.
why is everyone so similar and yet so different.
how does people of different personalities end up together.
what is going to happen if ur mother did not marry ur father.
will there be a you if they didn't?
why does life has an end.
and when it ends, where will you be.
will you be able to feel the earth like u feel it now.
is there really a heaven.

will there really be a next life.
will you meet the people you love again.

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reborn

whats the feeling of rebirth
-shihua