school started. and things didn't really turn out the way i wanted it to be. there seems to be no one for me to talk to in school now other then nurmalah and evelyn. i might appear talkative, but the only person i talk to are only lala and eve. projects are always in threes and i don't really see any interaction with the class actually, other then the few of us. we just avoided each other's eye contact i suppose. i didn't dare open my mouth to speak to them. i appeared cheerful but i was actually frightened. i could just keep smiling and smiling. i was very excited on the first day. but the excitement seemed to have died today. perhaps the energy in me has already run out. or perhaps, i felt a bit lonely. there is no more machi and jaa. no more. and machi seemed to be offline every night.

perhaps i am just asking too much. its still the first week anyways.