blank.to u:
i don't know if u will be reading this. part of me hopes that u are going to read it, part of me hopes that u don't. cuz whatever i type here, it is pretty obvious that it is just targeted at you. and after u read this, i know our relationship might even turn sour. because of i know i will be very harsh in this post because i am feeling very irritable now.
we need to talk. i have been bottling up my feelings for some time and it seems to be getting worse every single day. i have been feeling really worried and angry recently and that has slowly turned into an irritation. i am just hoping that it is just pure pms. seriously, when are u going to start thinking and be independent. i seriously wonder how u will be able to survive without me. are u going to be a loner? i always have this urge white.to really raise my voice at u but i just can't bring myself to. cuz i know u and i are both stubborn and its not going to end up anywhere nice. i seriously dislike this feeling of being worried all the time. i know u will tell me not to worry. But how is that possible? tell me? please live with a purpose in life.Don't do things just because u have to or because others told u to do so. think of your goals and aim. what do you really want to do? u are seriously just wasting ur time trying to juggle all the things in one go when u know u can't handle it. yes i know, its going to be over soon. but after this, are u really going to be really free? u know, even without that particular major commitment u have now, u have seriously a lot of other commitments? can u please just choose one? and choose one that u want! either for ur passion, or for a brighter future! i really can't stand it when i see u juggling nothingness all your commitments. u say u have peer pressure in school. i know i am the main root of that peer pressure. but why are u feeling this peer pressure? because the other's results are good? because you feel too stupid? hey. u are not stupid. u just lack that determination in school. purely because what u are studying is not ur passion. then why are u studying it then? u are doing your work just because you have to. do u realize that u and me are different in the way we work?
when u wake up late, u will just skip school, unless you know that lesson is going to be super duper important. i will not. no matter how late i am, i will try to go school and attend the class.
you are willing to skip classes for your other commitment. i will never. unless it concerns life and death. i have been brought up not believing in skipping classes.
u missed a lot of class.colourless i haven't missed a single one.
u have a lot of commitments. i totally don't. i choose to concentrate on one.
i enjoy my work, u don't.
i can catch up with the lessons well. u can't. u have been depending a lot on me to update you. and it seriously makes me feel guilty when i forgot to tell u certain points.

alrights. now i am hoping that u are not going to read this. even if u read it, please pretend u didn't. i just need a place to vent.