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I really want to thank those who had given me blessings when i was sick. Honestly, i am grateful to all of you. Yannming, guohao, maiosia, junhong, kaiyu esecially. thanks. really. *muacks*that period of time had really been terrible. i was so sick i cannot even finish one plain bowl of porridge. No appetite at all. none. And when i nod my head, it hurts like hell. worse of all, i felt so hot yet i wasn't perspiring. if i had perspired, i might have felt better.. \(^-^)/
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8th june 2006 thursday

i finally got to go back to school and see my friends.(oh yes.. they are my dear s21).. when i saw them,i really felt like hugging and squeezing their lungs out.. wahaha. missed them so much. not seing them for 1-2-3-4-5 days seems like such a long time.anyway, today was the leadership camp thingy. all the talking part were super boring. as in the part where the intructor was talking, not group discussion. my group discussion was rather hyped up. *claps* First we had to do all the i-dunno-how-to-describe things. a combination of what, shaking hands, missing a high five(which turned out into me hitting a few people's butt. victims:jasmine, shanshan, kaiyu etc) and then still got the hold coffee and put newspaper under armpit thingy. ehx.. i was a little sian diao lorx. so i only mixed around with my class..oh next! must go around and find someone you dunno. HOHOHO. actually, those i found all i know one. joyce, daniel and the rest of my class again. AGAIN, if u noticed.oh great. here comes to commitment and perserverence part of the day. 1 pusher, 2 blockers, 1 supporter. Initially, i thought that we only need to play the game once, so i volunteered to be the supporter. *heeheeeex* i thought i was supposed to just stand at the side and watch others play.. but oh manx!! later on i had to be the pusher and blocker 3 times in a row! Woah! that activity almost killed me!! X_x. As the pusher, i had shan and eli as my blocker.. Imagine! shan!! Super strong gal! The next gen alpha lady sia... After that one round, when the histle went off, i practically fell to the floor. My legs were so very very wobbly! Woah! what an experience! talking about violent girls, pjc sure has a lot.then as the blocker for celine, i fell down twice!! so paiseh! argh! and that celine arhx, use dunno wad tactic arhx.. ppl push, she drill into us, head first. wahaha.. me and eli were practically searching for celine's head. hahax.kd.Honestly, i like the discussion part after the game. My group participated a little ethusiastically only, however, it felt nice, cuz of the slow going back ground music. Quite soothing. Oh yes!! and must acknowledge my group facilitator! shirlynn! when i listen to her talk, i was like, jaws drop. She speaks with such poise man! such confidence!! i know i will never be acieve that. she is my goal manx!!Oh, then the last activity was the speech thingy. When it was my turn to stand on the table and talk about my goals, i went totally blank. so angry lahx! i had so many things to talk about when i was the audience! then go up? blank. oh. and my knees were nearly giving way, plus the table isn't stable. nearly fell 2 times. ahahx.. i wanted to break down when i was up there, if any of the audience could tell.. i was stating a real life experience in sec 2, when i almost got retained and for the first time in my entire 14 yrs of life, saw my father cried. Really, that feeling was terrible. tears were really brimming in my eyes manx. i swear. however, i perservered!! i went through the entire thing and got 4 votes from the audience of 9 ppl! almost half. hahax. a little more then i expected. then the facilitator also said sth like," i can see where you r getting to. good." woohoo! another thumbs up! *show thumb*
wow... long compo...
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9th june 2006 friday

today is the 2nd day of the camp. feel super tired, so i shall cut it short. real short. we played the spiderweb thingy and the trustfall thingy. very interesting. i cried during the discussion for trustfall.. cannot believe myself either.. i am so emotional. hahax. the for the spider web thingy. so farni. actually we tried for 2 an d a half hours also couldm't get a single person over. then the last half an hour, we got 14 over!! 14!! our target was only 5 lorx.. hahax. we are alpha kids manx! we drink enfagrow!! ok.. zzz.. very tired.. shall sleep.
i can't go online at home so i typed it out in notepad and posted it in school. art room. hahax.