another one

15th june 2006 thursday
Today is another slacking day for me lahx. but i feel super duper guilty lorx. firstly, i haven't touch a single homework yet. secondly, even though i know i never do my homework, i still continued to slack. wa lao.. i feel like slapping myself. really.ok. i shall narrate how i slacked today. i had actually promised myself i would go to school to finish my art. but what the hell!! i went there to watch lu guang sen lin on youtube!! yixian also. then later yann ming came cuz he got nothing better to do.. hahax. then we went to play pool!! And thats bloody hell how i spent my day today. lu guang sen lin and pool. i cannot perform well on the school pool table. dunno why. when i watched yixian and yannming played pool, i felt super depressed. i just sat at a corner and stared at the game. a lot of things ran thru my mind. about how others thought of me, about how i am not going to finish my holiday homework in time, about how i am not going to pass my mid-yrs. honestly, the passing mid-yrs part sounds very far, especially when i have returned everything back to miss lin and mdm lim. i don't even know how to do the holiday homework. Argh! about how the others think of me, i may sound very depressing but i feel like i have no good friends in pjc at all. my class is a nice class, a wonderful class, a class i really love to hang out with. but i feel that there is really no one i can pour out my sorrows to(if i had any). honestly, the first person i thought of was only yannming and yixian. but they are still guys lahx wth... still don't feel comfortable telling them girl's stuff. and yann ming seems to be thinking about another girl all the time. don't want to add to his burden le. then yixian, dunno lahx. feel like i have ran out of topics to talk to him about. then feel a little bit bu zi zai with him.i am still a girl mahx. i need a girl friend.. sobs.. i miss abi, fangzhou, germ, and yichiew so much.. haix..tomorrow got rv cellobass outing, but sad case, i cannot go. i also haven't got my rv cellobass t-shirt yet. anyway, should i get one for pj cellobass too? but only 5 ppl.. hahax..today went to see banghao's blog. so glad he still misses us. love him manx..yesterdAY went watch x-men with kaiyu yannming jianwei. then went kbox aith kaiyu and shamsham. we were like 3 siao cha bors down there, shouting and dancing like crazy. wahahax. oh. and i got a list of songs we must sing in kbox. really very high.1.FIR's songs. wo yao fei.2.tata young's sexy naughty bitchy & i believe3.ben xiao hai4.dancing queen(ABBA one though i prefer a teens)5.tong kuai(she)6.cao meng's ai bu pa & bao bei dui bu qi7.deng li jun's tian mi mihahax. got a lot of old and retro songs lahx. super fun.
------------------------------------17th june 2006 saturday
woah.. i really want to complain about my sister again lahx. she is so cocky lorx! she keps saying that she is clever and i am stupid. just cannot stand her. today, i was just calling my friend and commenting about how i am going to fail my mid-yrs badly, then she suddenly said very loudly,"if you continue calling your friend and not studying, you will sure fail. In fact, you will sure fail, so whats the point of complaining to your friend?" wa kao! i really feel like slapping her manx. Hey! i am talking on the phone and she is there cursing me!?!? i tried to cool down. i took in deep and long breaths. but she continued shouting into the receiver!"put down the phone right now and go study!" argh!! i nearly strangled her! she think she very clever arghx. so what if she is top 15 in her level? that doesn't give her any reason to order me around? shouldn't she show me some form of respect?!?! i am after all her elder sister!! by the time she is my age, she might even be on the phone for a longer period of time lahx!!sometimes, i really don't like my sister. she really don't show me any respect at all. she likes to ridicule me in front of my friends. she likes to laugh at my studies. she likes to keep repeating the fact that i almost got retained in sec 2. i don't get it. why is she like that? *sobs*