NAFA sports day!

cheese
boo!
my class volleyballing
my lecturer in charge! abbie! hiding from the cam!
pick up sticks. mind sports. ^^

oh yeah! today, there was NAFA sports day.
i didn't know it is that happening.
the sumo sumo, rodeo bull, spider whatever etc all look so damn fun!
i kind of wanted to join. haa. but dun dare to join alone.
haix. jaa and meiqi dun wanna join. T_T
so i went off wandering around with danny's SLR cam.
shiok la!!! thoroughly enjoyed the feel of the superb cam.
i want a cam like that too!
i shall add that to my wishlist.
but i wanna apologise to jaa and machi.
so sorry i left u all alone to keep a lookout for the bags.
i was too interested in the games le. so sorry.
next time, we all three throw our bags and run off together okayys?
otherwise u all always look very sian...
i was looking around for alvin actually.
cuz he said he'll be playing!!!
but i dun see him at all!!!
only see him walking around. haaa.
psychotic liar.

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i bought a cap for myself! its black with a chain in front.
haaa. i felt that next time i go for outings like today's sports day, when i have to stay under the sun for hours, i'll have something to protect my face from the scorching sun.
heee. and its only 9.90!!! cheap la!
i shall go get one for jaa and machi too.
but i wonder if they'll want to wear cap.
i have a feeling they dun.
i shall ask them.
i want to make something for them. i really dun know what.
jaa already made the necklace and even bought t-shirts for us.
i kind of feel like doing my part too.

and i bought 4 pairs of super low ankle socks.
cuz my ankle socks always slides up my feet.
then i'll look like i'm wearing normal socks.
i wonder why.

so next time, u'll all thought i'm not wearing ay socks at all.
haaaa...

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school didn't go well these days.
it isn't because of school work.
i'm working harder then in my jc and secondary school lives.
but because of internal fueds between classmates.
its a group of people against one person, in which i wun want to lose any.
understand what i mean?
all i can do now, is to try minimizing the friction between both sides,
by trying all means to minimize the tension between both sides.
try to be cheerful everytime. laugh and joke around i guess.

m-dun keep thinking about it okayys? it might be quite difficult to understand why they have to behave like this. but from what i feel, they really dun mean any harm. they are just expressing what they feel in their own way.
when they gossip, they wouldn't want to let the person know. so they'll talk in their own language. think about it, if we were to be studying overseas, in a place that doesn't understand chinese(just an example). and we dun quite like a person, i believe we will be gossiping in chinese too. don't u think so? put ourselves in their shoes. it wouldn't be intentional. its like when a group of us dun like a person, we will laugh at the person together. like how we always laugh about jingwen(that i must say we are wrong too). come to think about it, them and us, we are quite similar. because they hang out together and have so much fun, they will become wild and not realise that what they are doing will hurt another. put ourselves in their shoes. they mean no harm.
cheers! ^^

真的,我沒事

On and on, the pain goes on
And it wouldn't just wouldn't die

我竟远比想像中软弱旦无能为力

对你的眼神选择了逃避恨自己恨自己

On and on, the pain lives on
It's hurting so much more

就像我被悔不当初的罪恶吞去

惩罚过后能否带来解脱

I'll be fine I'll be fine
So many cried, listening to God

让坚强不只是种伪装

So many lies, listening to you
天亮后I will be fine
On and on, the pain goes on and
I just don't know how to cope

伸手抱住自己是否就能够不再空虚

最后信念别放弃

I will be fine I will be fine
So many cried, listening to you

希望你能再给我力量

I will be fine
So many lies, listening to you

什么时候

I will be fine

当我再也不对任何事期待只剩下你只剩下你

有天当我舍弃一切见你请你要微笑不语

So many cried, listening to you

希望你能再给我力量

I will be fine So many lies, listening to you

什么时候I will be fine

a random video that was shot in class a few weeks ago.



and the f1 practise run shot i took on the saturday.

singapore biennale and mon's birthday.

yesterday was my mom's birthday, we bought a mango cake to celebrate it with her.
we wanted to bake a cake for her initially, but our cake turned out as a failure, so had to get one for her at the last minute.
other then that, we went for a vegetarian meal with my mom! at green on earth!

this is 'green forest'. the taste is ultra strong. my sis ordered it but dun like it. end up my pa help her eat.. haaaa...
then we saw this poster at the carpark at beauty world. it says:"TOP UP CASHCARD HERE"
but look closely! where is the machine to top up cashcard? is it invisible? lol....
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on wed, when people were celebrating hari raya. i went to do project.

i had to look for artists involved in the singapore biennale 'o8.so i went to city hall with my grp members.

i specially like this following piece of artwork, done by an artist called issac montoya. it is titles fantasma(phantoms).
from a normal view, it looks like some colourful picture like what u see here.

but when u look at the pic thru a blue screen, it looks like a man in agony.
and when u look at it thru a red screen, a pitiful kid would be looking up at u.
don't u think this work is amazing.

then, we wanted to go to another place which supposedly held the biennale as well.
ended up not seeing anything. its either we got the wrong place or something. cuz we dun see any entrance to any art gallery at all. so we walked here and there through the entire cutyhall area and even to the flyers at marina. i think my group leader got the wrong info again and we had to walk back to city hall from the singapore flyers. woah... it was a long and tiring walk, but we did take a brake at the flyers and enjoyed the gelato ice-cream at gelatissimo. nice!

after that, we went to the old parliament building which also held the singpore biennale. heng this place was open, so we went in to take a look. it was fun. some of the art piece are so scary! especially those in the dark dark rooms... i always dun dare to go in alone.(mind u! the rooms are so dark i can't see my hands when i walk in! and one of them has this wierd buzzing sound complemented with a burning fire background projected on the wall! it scared the hell out of me!) i always have to pull my grp leader, pauline, into the room with me.. haa... poor her..

this is pauline here. walking thru one of the artworks. hmmmm. this work looked very famliar. i dunno when dod i see it before. definitely not in a park.

this is another art piece that doesn't look nice from afar. the thing about it is, we get to interact with the other viewers of this art piece. we wrote messages on a piece of sticker and pasted in on the art piece. haaa.. a typical art piece that requires the viewer ti interact with the art work.


amazingly, omongst the millions of messages, i spotted my jc classmate's message! haaa. it was such a coincidence. turned out that shan shan was at the same spot as me the day before i went there. lol.

this is one of the videos projected on the wall in a totally dark room. haaa. i randomly shot my silhouette.
this was what the art piece was supposed to be.
there are some more other artpieces that are really intrigueing. too bad i am too lazy to post everything up. i really think that if u are interested, u should go down and see for urself. if u want, can ask me go with u. i dun mind going there again. its ultra nice!

i just hope ppl can accept me for who i am

a random vid i did for my current classmates.
its just photomontage, so it might get boring after a while...

friends are everywhere. but good friends are certainly hard to find. i thank god for having given me this 2 friends in nafa, whom i can completely trust. i certainly hope that this friendship can last throughout my entire lifetime.
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looking back at my lower secondary school life, i knew that i had not made any good friends then, and that is certainly my regret. i'll just look around in their facebook profiles, curious about how they are leading their lives now. but i just do not have the courage to start talking to them again. although we were once 2 years of classmates, i certainly do not have any bond with them and i dun understand why. when i look at their photos and i see them all still hanging out with each other. i get jealous. i dun say so but i am. so now, i feel that i would want to make really close friends in my new environment.i dun want to regret.

when i think deeper into my life, i just feel that i can't make close friends because i am not good with words. when people talk to me, i'll always wonder how to reply. i'll think for quite sometime before i reply cuz i dun wan to say anything wrong or wierd. but it always doesn't seem to be the case. i always want to think of something funny to say, so that i can cheer my friends up. but i am always somehow unable to do so. my jokes are always so not funny. why. sometimes when i try saying something funny, my friend will just look at me and *blink blink*. after that, i'll always start to laugh, to lighten the atmosphere.

i just dun know how to talk. i am scared of being alone with just 1 friend actually. thats cuz i always feel that the atmosphere would be very tensed. i will not know what to say unless the other person take the initiative. or perhaps we just dun have a common topic. but usually these people i can't talk to alone are those whom i rally admire or really like. i just hate myself for being this way. why.

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well.. i guess i am just ranting. dun bother about what i wrote at my friends. i have been having late night sleeps this few days and it is now 0230 am, so i am back in my emo and tired state of mind. i'll be back to the normal state of mind by tomorrow morning. and maybe by then, i would even have regret posting this paragraph up. i just need a good night rest.

crazy

its always very wierd. my mom's mood will always seem to be either very high or very bad. a few days ago, she kept giving me the colder shoulder which i utterly hate. and yesterday, she came into my and my sis's bedroom to disturb us. giving us all these wierd faces. haaax. love it.

of course, i played along with her as well.. okayys.. i know i look stupid. XD

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ahhh!!!!!!!!!!! then i experienced something for the 1st time in my life today. jamming inside a real jamming room!!!! watching how my classmates play their hardcore metal music was really a very interesting experience. the atmosphere was a bit wierd though cuz they didn't really prepare much. haaa. the amplifier was so loud that my heart almost jumped out when jerome started jamming on his drum set. coool!!! this is the 1st time i see them play musical instruments. i was quite amazed by how jerome knows how to play both the guitar and the drum set. quite well played to... haa.. he makes me feel how classical i am. i don't really play all the hardcore metal. only pop songs. but alas. they did play something i was familiar with - superman by five for fighting.

this is jerome with the drum set. see his tattoos and hairstyle?

haa. this is sattiya!!!!!!!!!! i think he is younger then me. i dunno his real age. but when i talk to him, i feel as if i am talking to a xiao boy boy... haaa. oops. hope he doesn't see this... ^^
thats jerome again, and the back view of danny. the crazy xiao zho bor.... haaa.. cute girl.

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my pa fetched me after class today... thanks jaa and machi for accompanying me to the singapore calligraphy society. (cuz my pa fetch me there)

we went for sushi!!!!!!!!!!!!


see how much we ate? there was only me, my pa, and my sis. 3 people. ^^
the greedy and unglam jiayan.. haaa...
weeeeeee... the greedier and unglam-er me.... but greens are good... ^^

crap

yeah... i said i would blog something today.

haaa. but what should i blog about huh?

i wonder....

haaax. isn't this picture interesting.. randomly found this on the web.. lol. i am actually blogging like meiqi. postin up pictures that i found interesting.




well. i want to complain about my hair!!! why is it always so messy. i did try to tame my hair this morning and it turned out terrible!!! argh. and i met so many ppl today, pammy and jiahong.. sian... they can see my messy hair le.... waaaahhh!!!!!!! so paiseh. and i only realised that my hair is messy when i reached home.... T_T.
furthurmore. i dun like the shirt i wear today! its so irritating! it keeps sliding up, causing me to like 'zao geng'. alamak. today sculpture also like that. when i pick up the hammer and start chiselling my sculpture, my shirt ran up. wheni ran across the road also same thing happen... argh... dunno how many ppl saw my flesh already.. i want cry. i am so not going to wear that shirt to school. large size t-shirt is still the best.
then, pammiewammie came all the way down to sunshine plaza to print things. so i went to meet her lo. go home tgt. very long nvr see her mahx... haa. really got a lot of things to ask her lehx... miss her so much. haaa. then machi say she look a lot like me. toot toot de... oi! is not toot okay. is innocent. haaa. when we reach bpp, i met my cousin, jiahong, and surprisingly, tianqi. haaa. she live at bugis there lehx. haa. came all the way down to meet her boyfriend sia... so lovey dovey...
lol... i sort of admire those attached. hmmm.. *abish*! what am i thinking! isn't it good to be carefree? sighs....

remember i said i went for hip hop open class at o school?
haaax. amazing! i could actually catch up with the rest of the pro-er students in the class... heys.. i dun have any dance background at all okayys...

look closely into this video.maybe u might know which is me... haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....................

thanks!

thanks a lot for your encouragement my dear friend.
thanks a lot for listening to me even though i can't express myself well.
thanks a lot for accompanying me home from school everyday.
thanks a lot for making my life shine.
thanks a lot for making my life wilder then before.
thanks a lot for helping me solve my problems.
thanks a lot for letting me into your life.
thanks a lot for walking into my life.
thanks a lot for making me ur friend.
thanks a lot for hoping we will be friends forever.
thanks a lot.
i really appreciate it.

everything is back to normal again.
home is once again home. many thanks to u.

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well. school started and life gets interesting once more. i'm starting to like school and the ppl i hang out with. okayys. i dun like them. i LOVE them. especially machi and jaamine. they are part of the reason i dun like to be late for school. CUZ I'LL GET TO SEE THEM! haa. not forgetting uncle ken. always babysitting us. argh. i know i know. jaamine and machi are going to say its ken and me babysitting machi and jaa. lol. life really gets very colourful talking to them. jaa sort of gave me the courage to take up hip hop. machi gave me the power to go crazier then ever. and ken. hmmm. he gave me the chance to taste good food around bugis. haaa. life will be different without them. like a rainbow losing one of its colour. then it will never be as colourful as before. u know what i mean ya? life will never be as interesting.
but dearest machi have already appealed to change course. to video production. as her dream is to ber a scriptwriter.
the right thing to do is to encourage her to pursue what she wants best. but the hope of her failing her appeal always linger in me. i feel evil.
dear me.

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i just bought hard pastels for illustration class.
it wasn't compulsary but i really love drawing using pastel, even though it always mess up my table and dirty my hands. i have been addicted to the way i can blend the colours using hard pastels. so i drew a pic of my sis over the weekends. haax. i made her look at the audience. and i enlarged her eyes! its cuter anyways... ^^


other then drawing a portrait of my sis. i met up with my jc buddies too.

chong was so tired from his ns life that he fell asleep at the restaurant. haaa. kust kidding actually. it was because he had only 2 hours of sleep the day before. poor thing.
and this was my dinner. latino chicken chop i think. its quite nice.

my favourite part of the meal! candy floss! its so big it actually covers my face.
yesterday during lunch, we saw this scene. the bus driver actually stopped at the double yellow line just to take a leak. lol. it was quite hilarious. i think he was a little paiseh. cuz he ran to the toilet and then ran back. quite rush.

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and we took some pics during drawing fundamentals again. machi and i attempted to take pics without specs. haaa. i realise i dun look too bad without them. but i just look like another plain jane. whatever. i look like plain jane with my specs any ways...

hey dude. aren't we kooooooooooollllllll...........
okayys. they are superwomen and i am a nose digger.
hamsters. sighs. they have been saying i look like a hamster! do i? haaa. i think machi looks more like a hamster.