break me open, tear me down.
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it has been extremely busy these days. the earliest i slept was 3am cuz the overloading homeworks are killing me. and finally wed arrive and i need not go to school. yays!
its 1.43am now. i know i can actually use this time to sleep because theres no lesson for me tmr, but i can't. now that my body clock has been tuned to sleep at 3, i can't sleep any earlier before that. but at least i get to take a break now. but i am bored. my life seem very meaningless now. its all homeworks the whole day. and even if i spend the whole day doing my homework, i can't seem to finish them at all. i am worried. actually, not worried about myself but more worried about my friends. machi and jaa. am i a bit kan chiong over all the group study thingy? i just want to see that u all complete your work, and i hope its not a last minute thing. i just feel that the ealier we finish it, the better. isn't it? i hope i didn't stress you all or sth. ok? alright? well... jaa, i am more worried about you, don't skip anymore lesson already ok? i know its not on purpose, just try. and today, u said u feel like quiting school. really? although it seemed like just a passing remark, but i felt a bit shocked. but oh well, if u really think that you have to do it, just do it. its your decision. but u have to really plan what u are going to do in the future and work hard for it. u said u wanted to be an interior designer and a dance instructor eh? then work hard for both. damn hard okayys. do your ultimate best. machi, u are so right. i really care a lot about how others think of me. and its really a lot. and i don't deny it. as that something really bad? as for haolian, really? i thought i was usually just joking. but sometimes, i am really proud of my work. so i hope this haolian thing is not really as bad as i think it is. ^^
as can be seen, i have been discussing with machi about each other's bad points. cuz not everyone is perfect. haolian and think too much about what others think about me is the 2 of my bad points machi stated. and so what others do i have? materialistic? insensitive? in decisive? retarded? so what do u all think of me? tag me in my tagboard and give me answers. i'm curious.

machi, i really can't think of your bad points. cuz everytime i think of one, i will have reasons to cover up for your bad points. like: u are poor at organising your time. but that is because you have to handle work and school at the same time. you are too independent. but is that really a bad point? isn't it good to be independent? oh! i thought of one. perhaps you turn into quiet state too easily when u are together with a group of people. haa. then everyone will start worrying. like we don't know whether did we offend you or sth. its rather scary sometimes. and u are a movie addict. u watch a lot of movies. ahaha. you are too tomboyish. ahh. its that bad? i don't know. well. i can't think of anything else.
jaa, u want me to write anything about you? hehe. i have a list... ^^ *evil grins*

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i am going for dinner with my jc art mates tmr. yays. i can't wait. they are going over to nafa tmr to look at the japan photography exhibition. i miss pammy!!!!!! pammy! saw this?!?!!? ahaha. my beloved silly and cheek-pinching cute pammiewammie. how i hope i am now in adm with you. but my luck ain't as good as you. i can't get into ntu. i miss those 'camp in the art room and fooling around and doing each other's work' days. i want to turn back time if i can. i really wish that can happen. sighs. but its mission impossible. i just miss you terribly.